*sigh*
Mood:  hug me
rejection is a horrible feeling.

I know i'm not the most entertaining person in the world, but give me credit. i've not slept much lately. i'm surviving on 11 hours of sleep in the past 58 hours nearly.

so i'm talking to a friend, she doesn't reply. i was like ok she's busy. i'm tryin not to get hurt here or feel rejected or anything but ppl push me to my limits.

friend replied and said sorry, she was back now. i told her it's ok if she's busy n cant talk i'm not gonna force her to talk to me. (i.e. tell me if you can't talk, i'll understand)

she leaves me with the impression she's not busy, n so i'm like ok so i send her a few IMs to which she never replies

finally i'm tired of being ignored n lied to i know she's busy so i said ok i know you're busy you could have just told me.

she said she was watching tv. sorry.
that was a lie... i think.
cuz later she said it wasn't really the tv she was talking to others.

ok you can talk to others without ignoring one friend.

so let me ask you this...

am i that crappy of a person?
that lousy that you can't tell me you're busy for fear of hurting my feelings??

*sighs* i don't know any more. I'm tring though...

grr
Mood:  spacey
is it too much work for people to tell me they're busy and they cant talk?

it must be b/c ppl just ignore me on IM. it's like if youre busy you don't have to talk to me. i understand if you're busy, but just say so. don't be freakin rude and ignore me.

sheesh.

wh00t for rock music - looking for christian rock songs
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Pillar - Bring Me Down (from "Where Do We Go From Here")
wh00t for rock music

I SO need to expand my music library with Christian Rock songs. wanna help? contact me.

AIM: Katthecatlover
Yahoo: Kat_thecatlover
MSN: (@) Kat (@)
email: Kat081584@gmail.com

so today started out pretty crappy.

over all i had a very bad day.

So I love rock music so i turn on the Christian Rock station on LAUNCHcast cuz yeah... i love rock music.

man... good stuff, i'm tellin ya!

Kat081584: do you have the following cd's: KJ-52 (lookin for which one) and Pillar - Fireproof
Jason: nope
Kat081584: you stink! LOL Jason the Rock Meister doesn't have Pillar or KJ-52

so i have a list of wanted CD's right now:

17 Christian Rock Hits! 2005
Pillar - Fireproof
The Wedding - self titled cd (see for info bout these guys. they're pretty awesome)

and yeah i'm sure there's more it's only a matter of time before I find more i want.

so yeah. If you wanna help me expand my rock music collection i'd love random songs. lol. lemme know whatcha got!!

IDIOTS!
Mood:  irritated
ugh. so i blog rant about ppl all the time on xanga. every time i do some hobo always has to get on my freakin case about it! so i'm reading xanga subscriptions today and someone blog rants about someone. SHE GETS FREAKIN SYMPATHY! I get major crap about how it's not right to blog rant about ppl even if you dont mention names yet she does it, and she gets freakin pity from one of the same ppl who gives me crap when i blog rant about others!

GROW UP PEOPLE! DAMN! MAKE UP YOUR MIND IS IT RIGHT OR WRONG??? there is no freakin middle ground you morons! if it's wrong for one person then it has to be wrong for everyone.

if one person murders someone and it's wrong, then it's STILL wrong when someone else murders a person! DUH!

IDIOTS! ugh! get on my freakin nerves soo much! sick of this crap, for real, man.

it's an all out war starting this evening. when that person gets online i'm gettin on her case bout it. thats so not right.

I want pity for when people piss me off too. if you're gonna give her support n such when ppl piss her off you better do it for me too to be fair.

jealous? no.
pissed off? yes
tired of ppl. riding the fence? yes

MAKE
UP
YOUR
DANG
MINDS!!!

grrrrr

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